Yeah baby, I have felt the same way. Sometimes I wish that I didn't have my son as well. Those words are even hard to write. He has put me through so much, it's almost like he has no real compassion towards me. Someone once said on here that my son loves me so much but he'd sell my organs in a heartbeat.
There are good times still. But the longer this stuff goes on (4 years and counting) the easier it is to detach, to walk away and let him deal with the mess he has created.
Thanks for the honesty, baxter. It is refreshing.
krhea