Hang in there Ostara. On the positive side you are well into conquering one, if not THE major root problem holding you down. It may not be the only challenge but it is a huge one. Some don't make it this far but you have.
It's not uncommon to feel grief and fear leaving such a seemingly "comfortable" place you (we) slipped into and felt safe for so long but as you said, this too will pass. Don't let all of the future overwhelm you in one big gulp. Take it one day, one minute at a time. We can only do one step one at a time. We are that way, it's our nature.
You've done great this far and whether it feels like it or not you are walking the right path. Make the you of tomorrow look back and thank the you of today and the future will work out for you. We're here to help...thanks for joining us in the good fight. You will win! *hugs*
