Hi Ostara,
Congratulations on 36 days sober!
My belief is that we are here to learn. Everything that happens to us, happens for a reason. It's sometimes really hard to see the reason, but I do believe there is always a reason. I think as addicts we numb ourselves and/or we try to control things. I did both and I was miserable. I think that learning to deal with what comes along is hard, but you can do it. Try to look at losing your job as an opportunity to move into something better.