Hi there,
Welcome to SR.
You are definitely in the right place. I for one can relate to you. I saw a lot of myself in what you wrote. I was just thinking to myself yesterday that I don't know ME anymore, and I don't like that. I have lost almost all of my good habits and developed a bunch of new, bad habits. I don't like that, either.
While I can't promise you that everyone here will always tell you what you WANT to hear, I can promise you that we will tell you what you NEED to hear, and we will ALWAYS support you and encourage you to continue your recovery.
I'm ending my 4th day sober, by the way. I've stopped and started the recovery train more times than I can count.