I relapsed - so I`m back to day 1 - feeling horrible - Ithink I`m withdrawaling from ativan too - the dr won`t give me any me more until sept 8 or something. I`ve barely slept.
Hilltopper - I drank/drink ALOT of wine - usually bought the biggest bottle they have - I think its 3 liters and would drink over 3/4ths of it in a day/night. EVERY day.
For a long time. See my post on page one - ultimate embarrassment - flagged at the liquor store.
Plans - I don`t have any - I guess that`s why I keep failing. The longest I`ve ever gotten is 16 days and that was quite a while ago. I feel like the world`s biggest loser and I am so full of shame and self hatred I could die. I have to go watch some training film in a bit for a job I am trying to get and I am so shakey I am praying I get thru it without passing out, throwing up or falling over. Please someone help me I am losing it.