Hi Eclipse
I think the word in your sibject I have the most interest in is the word choice. I drank a lot of wine too. Then one day I realised I had drunk 20 large glasses and I was still feeling sober so I tried to stop but I couldn't stay stopped. If you are like me, you may have a problem that will get worse with time and you may have lost the power to choose whether or not you drink wine.
Nowadays the thought of drinking wine is awful. I have my sanity back and I can see what damage it did. I am free to choose whether or not I drink alcohol thanks to my AA programme.