Welcome to SoberRecovery. Peter has made a great suggestion, try some meetings, NA, AA for your substance abuse issues and Alanon, Naranon or CoDA for your issues of loving an addict. I promise you that they will help (they saved my life), and what have you got to lose to try? You have everything to gain.
Take a read around and know you are among friends here. You are wise to protect your own recovery from drug abuse, your life may depend on what you do next, and that is entirely up to you.
Glad to have you join us. There are many double winners here (experienced on both sides of addiction) and you may find that what helped them may help you too.
Hugs