Day 64. Things are horrible in my life right now. My disease is working so hard. I hit my knees this morning and cried like a baby. I am weak and vulnerable and feel so worthless. I have all the things that bring you down resentment, fear, self pity. I am beating myself. I need to make it through today and I need to sleep tonight it has been 3 or 4 days since I have really slept.