Thanks, everyone. I'm not sure where I stand right now.
We talked a little bit about an hour ago but not so much about the alcohol aspect... it was more about what's wrong and why can't I talk to him. The vodka thing didn't come up again during the conversation, but I can't promise it won't come up later tonight.
He seemed genuinely sorry that I felt I could not turn to him in my time of need. He seemed genuinely willing to attempt to help me going forward. We just didn't talk about what exactly he needs to help me with. That part of it just got skipped. I am starting to think he doesn't want to acknowledge it as much as I don't.
I had been texting my best friend during this, so she at least knows it's about alcohol, but she doesn't know exactly what. We haven't had a chance to talk yet.
I think the hardest part of this is still ahead of me.
For what it's worth, I researched local AA meetings today and there are NONE during the day! Why is that?!? Why are they all at night? Now that both my kids are in school I thought for sure I could do something during the day, but... apparently not.