Originally Posted by
CarolD 
Texas...
When I did Steps 4 & 5 whatever I did in my drinking life
was reolved and I could then move into my new life.
....I strongly suggest you try that
or re do them if you have not found peace.
Forward we go..side by side
Yep, I need to go back. I'm serious about sobriety and sometimes I think I'm moving too fast. Step 10 - 12 is scaring me, as I'm not there, I need to go back.
I'm so not ready to serve others. Thank you.
EDIT: I'm on step 9. I can't seem to make my amends to my ex-wife and her family. I think it would cause too much pain. If I admitted my faults and apologized, I'm afraid she might think we're getting back together. That will never happen, but I have to admit that I left my ex-wife without any real reason. In the original spirit of the thread, yes I cheated on her. I was a drunk, the end. I do not want my ex back. My current hates me too, and I have to start over. What are you gonna do?