(((anubus))) I hope you are feeling better today. It's hard to be without the person we thought we'd spend forever with. It's taken me a long time- a year- to feel even a bit better. I do, though. I even feel grateful I am dealing with being alone. I am still very sad sometimes, but I make the effort to go out with friends, to talk to people I trust and going to counseling has helped me a lot. I also found taking long walks helped. I cried a lot, journaled too, and it's gotten me through. Just keep taking those baby steps and know it's not going to happen over night. Be easy on yourself and one day I bet you'll look back and realize you do feel so much better.