Hi there Anubus,
Ditto Anvilhead's reply. You are going through major withdrawals. And, you are right exactly where you should be, doing everything you can.
Three things, though, that I might offer are that,
1.although you are going to meetings, and you do come here, do you have some friends, or even new women from AlaNon, who you can call, sit down with and talk to?
2. Also, I'd keep going to the AA meeting and learn more about this disease.
3. You may need professional help with yuor anxiety and depression. There is no need to suffer so. Can you call and get a consult with someone you trust?