In my experience, life truly does suck sometimes, but more often, it's my perception of it that sucks. I put my own personal spin on things and how I spin it determines how I feel about it.
You could be grateful that you ARE making it paycheck to paycheck and not bankrupt. You could be grateful that you ONLY have 8 lbs. to lose. You could be thrilled that your sister has a baby on the way, even though it means she is LESS available. And you could be grateful that you HAVEN'T gotten involved with an emotionally unavailable partner while you take the time to work on yourself.
When I am feeling angry, I sometimes don't know why. Many times I have posted here or written in my journal for days--even weeks--before I can identify the real source of my anger and then take action to work on it.
Keep up the good work you have been doing, gns. It will pay off when you least expect it.
L