Hi And Welcome Roger2.
Yeah...it really boils down to if you feel you can stop being addicted to alcohol. Forget the genes if you want, but right now would you say you are physically addicted to alcohol. Can you make it one day? Can you make it 3 days? Have you been able to try?
I could make it 2 or 3 days, and then the need to drink would be too overpowering for me, and I would go out and buy some more.
I'm a person who really needs to have help to stop. The women's meeting sounds like if could be interesting. I had to promise my kids I would stop isolating and drinking, and get out and be social. This is now a really important part of my recovery tool belt.
I too am an atheist who attends AA meetings. I'm a sucker for love and support. I need lots of it!