:prayingThank you so much for this. It brought tears to my eyes. Just knowing that the father of my 2 yr. old daughter, my ex, is still using cocaine and is progressively drinking himself into a grave is destroying me. "You can't make me clean, though I know it is what you want for me to be" made me think that I have no control over what this addiction has done to him. I just wish I could do something to make him change, but that's my own recovery that I'm going thru, not being in control of something that is out of MY control.