Even if he continues to not use I dont know how to get past the mistrust and the pain he's put me through. Even now hes gone away and I haven't spoken with him for a few days. When he first got there the first night that I didn't talk to him and he didn't answer his cell phone that terrible feeling in my gut came back, like he was up to something ( i tried to tell myself he wasn't because of him being in NF and it being a lil tiny town) I look at alot of people on here and theres posts and there describing years of going through this and i dont know how they could do it? I just mean strength wise, I think I would fall apart if i have to go through him disappearing for nights on end again. My question is when there in active recovery how do you rebuild the trust? When do you stop looking at there phone? or digging through there things? Or not freaking out the instant they don't answer there cell phone?