Dear Smiley, honey I am so sorry. I have so much I want to say to you but don't have time now either.
I just wanted to welcome you to SR, tell you that you are not aone, ( unfortunately what you are going through is happening everyday ) and that you have come to a really good place. The people here are wonderful, and you will find much support here & a whole lot of good advice??
Hang Tough Smiley, things will get better.