Here's some other recovery programs to consider
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...cular-web.html
I didn't really care for AA at first either, but I felt like it was a matter of life or death to be there. That was a healthy fear for me to have. It took almost 6 months of daily meetings before I felt comfortable. Now AA is like a home to me, it's members are my family.