Trish,
That's a really good post!
First of all, I am so glad that you have continued to try again and again.
What you have learned is that stopping using is the beginning. That's when the hard work, from the inside out, begins. It's necessary to go that changing, growing process in order to live a sober life.
I love that you are taking care of yourself and shopping for clothes and painting your nails. Self-love is essential for staying sober.