Hi Kats, You sound like you've come to a healthy decision on what to do with your life now. Talking to a therapist was the best thing I could have done for myself. I know facing alot of hard words from them can not be comfortable but I had to...my son is on cocaine and I'd do just about anything to get him straight......so keep up the good work and I know it won't be easy for you ~~~~but just think of the wonderful, fullfilling life you can lead....Big hugs and smiles, Bonnie