Someone once said in here was "The thoughts in my head, the ones that won't go away, that have been there for so long, the thoughts that hold me back and keep me from growing. Worries, fears, false expectations" is exactly what I'm struggling with and have been for years but even more now because I've been starting to deal with my in feelings that I've been stuffing down.
I'm scared to say goodbye to the stuff that I'm used to doing, as in using and hanging out with unhealthy people.
I'm scared that I can't and won't move on.
This has been the hardest decision I've ever had to make in my whole life.
I want to have a healthy relationships with people and a healthy life, but on the other hand I want to just get lost and not do the work.
It's as if I'm sitting on the fence and can't decide witch side to fall off of.
