SoBearish -- thank you for sharing. I have the opposite problem! My husband is trying to convince me that I don't have a problem. He sees nothing wrong with my getting wasted or thinking about my next drink every time I drink. I guess he just doesn't understand the internal conflict.
You have a ton to live for -- you won't believe what kids will do for your life -- they are wonderful...but as I know it, they won't keep you sober. You've got to want that for yourself.
Again, thank you.