I was terrified at the thought of no more alcohol forever.
But I decided I had to 'man up' and give it a shot one day at a time.
I was tired of putting other people through hard times just so I could keep being a pansy.
No offense intended, these were just my feelings, but I really, truly, felt like a complete piece of **** because I was too much of a self-centered adult-wimp child to quit drinking. All I had to do was take a look at myself in the mirror and realize I didn't have to be a worthless spineless worm running for a drink everytime I thought I needed to, and put it down one day at a time.
14 years later and I still remember what a schmuck I was with my drinking. Me, me, me..... thinking.
I hope I never forget.