Rufus, so glad you are getting help in the program of AA. We have a wonderful secular forum for those that work the steps and are agnostic. I'm not one of them though. I'm very religious and work a secular recovery. This forum is where I come when I need to discuss my secular program.
I think you may get more responses in the Secular 12 steps forum though. BTW, I do believe in a major greater power, my HP put a great wheel of recovery in motion for me. Its up to me to make use it.