Its funny because as soon as some one mentions planning drinking my mind starts to swirl as i think about drinking, finding someway i could work drinking into every day.
At the moment its beautiful weather here in the UK (Crazy idea i know!) and so lots of people are having bbq's at the weekend. My heart races when i think about it because i know its an excuse to drink and then sinks when i realise that i'm drinking....its almost as if i've ruined it by not drinking.
Am i actually trying to say i can't have fun without drinking? Is that how bad i've become?
It really helps reading and posting on here, helps so much to know there are others who have gone through this and come out the other side. Thank you so much for spending the time.
Thank you