Congrats on 6 days! Keep posting! Keep moving forward in recovery! :atv
I am an alcoholic. I tried to find that "balance" many times with no success--to try to drink like "normal" people>if there is such a thing--but found that I could not. It wasn't until I gave up my ideas/reservations about possibly one day being able to drink again that I was able to begin the road to recovery.
Once I start drinking I cannot stop--period. Plus the mental obsession associated with drinking--finding/planning ways of drinking....took over my life. My life soon revolved around drinking...my activities, hobbies, friends etc. (That isn't really living--it is being in bondage.)
Meetings have helped me--both online and face-to-face meetings. I do enjoy the fellowship of other members in recovery. Attending meetings in person is where I was first introduced to the 12 Steps--which has been a life-saver for me. Meetings are good and you can learn alot from them, but my experience is that working through the Steps with a sponsor has been the key to my sobriety. :ghug2