Originally Posted by
worriedwife2 
Hello,
I truly wish he would return to the man I married. Thanks for listening.
Please forgive me for being so blunt (and possibly out of line), I truly do not mean it that way. But I'm going to give you a saying that my son gave me when I used to say that about my AH (and trust me, I've said it many, many times). The advice is "crap in one hand, wish in the other. See which one fills up quicker."
Worriedwife - I was once where you are now, not wanting to lose my house, couldn't make it financially, etc. (Look back on my previous posts, I sound alot like you). I am making it, actually gonna pay bills tonite! I stopped worrying about when or how I was going to leave him. I put faith in my HP and it was worked out for me. Just hang in there (and maybe try some Alanon meetings, they helped me immensely).