FD,
Wow....FANTASTIC post. I've copied it to my file to read again and again. I was having a difficult day today...*wondering* why I am so unable to get over my guy who is sooo not good for me...He's my ABF, who is now in rehab, but who I've been emotionally holding onto and defending to my friends....
seems like all of my sentences about him begin with BUT.
BUT he's SO sweet and funny when he isn't drinking or drugging
BUT he's REALLY attentive to me when I FINALLY get him to return my calls
BUT he's completely focused on me, when I corner him in his office
BUT he and I have so much in common, I'll never find someone else like this...well I'm not an alcoholic, but we have OTHER things in common
BUT he will come around and be nice to me when he's out of rehab
BUT I'm not "co-dependent"...I just want to talk to him to know if he's ok.
Thanks.
I'm not cured...but for now, my head isn't spinning, and that's a plus.
hugs,
rivka