So glad you got to a meeting - give yourself a hug. Walking into my first one was so scarey - but it was the beginning of saving my life.
I cried for weeks at meetings. It was the only hour in the day that I could let down my guard and think about what was going on in my home. But the folks were all so nice, understanding and had stories like mine - at least the feelings part. I felt like I was coming home!
25 years later, I'm still reading my Alanon literature and staying in touch with Alanon friends. It's become a wonderful way of life.
Love in recovery,
Jody Hepler