Okay-I screwed up last night.
One moment I was here-the next I was in my car driving home with a bottle.I can't and don't want to lie-but I guess I also don't want to start a new thread saying what a miserable failure I am etc.I just want to be free of this.Oh god I do.
I'm sorry.I could've lied-not said anything-pretended to be okay?But I can't.I'm trying so damn hard and it just baffles me how I just can't seem to get it.
I look at all of you-you seem so settled-and I'm so not.I can't type for tears.I just wanted to be honest.
I'm so sorry.
Julesxox