Originally Posted by
Dreamchaser 
Murph - the operative word you used above "refuse" will make the difference. I too refuse to ever drink again. However, I now also fear alcohol. It's not my friend: it's doesn't make me feel better; it not fun anymore; it causes me not but physical and emotional pain.
I hope I never forget what I went through to get to this point!
Keep posting and hang in there! I'm pulling for you.
That's how I manage the times I feel I want a drink. They don't last long and it happens less often now, but those feelings are very persuasive.
I have to tell myself it's a trick, and if I take that drink I'll be back in hell all over again, and I'm not going back there.