I know what you are feeling. I was with my big extended family yesterday on the 4th.
I am blessed with a wonderfully loving family.
But when your child is missing from the picture you can't help but feel the loss. Especially with all the past fun memories shared with them on that holiday before the addiction. when they were clean and whole and safe and trustworthy.
so it can hurt even as you look at your blessings. A piece just feels missing.