Crystal,
I was also raped when I was about 11 or so. I got past it and you will too. We just have to endure and go through until we come out on the other side. There is so much hope for you. Sometimes it hard to see how of the darkness when we are stuck in it. I found my way out ans so will you.
Keep talking and come here for support.
We all care.
Hugs,
MG