I'm not really sure what you're looking for Newport.
You said you're doing great in an Ivy League school, getting good marks. You participate in activitities. But, I think you;re concerned that alcohol is causing problems, particularly in the mornings with your memory and what you might have said the night before. Yeah, I know what that's like. One thing that is a fact is that alcoholism is a progressive disease and will continue to worse, unless you stop it. So, the control you think you have now, will lessen.
I will also mention that having aptitude has nothing to do with alcoholism. There are writiters, politicians, doctors, dentists, lawyers, pharmacists, as well as the whole spectrum of the work force, who are addicts. Some are highly poductive for awhile. Take a look around and read and learn.