Ive read many stories of people who quit drinking/using and discover other problems under the surface that they have to address now that they are sober. It is GREAT that you are learning more about yourself, and that you are taking steps to become a happier, more whole person. It might take a lot of work to get to where you want to be, but in the end i have no doubt that it will be totally worth it. Thanks for sharing this, your post has helped me.