Good morning to all of you and thank you so much for talking with me through this. Today is the day I pick up my husband. To "I AM".... we share alot of the same feelings. To 'ASpouse'...your words of wisdom are great to read. And to 'Smoke'....I truly hope that one day I can follow your advise and induldge in things for myself and my son. Alot of travel time is scheduled with the holidays coming up this weekend but I wanted to elt you all know that I have located an Alanon group not to far from my house and when I return home I plan on attending a meeting. I'm sure I will not know anyone there and I don't even know if anyone will speak to me, but I figure it can't hurt to give it a try. Thanks again to everyone. IAM....hopefully, together, with the help of the others, we can work through our anger like ASpouse seems to be doing and learn to be happy for ourselves once again.