I really feel your pain and suffering. It's just aweful what we must endure when it comes to our addict kids. But your son made choices here. He chose to leave a safe, recovery location, against medical advice. He made this choice with no $ and no plan for how to live. If you rescue him now, he will learn nothing. Allow him to learn that actions and choices have consequences. Basically, I think you'll be a worried, hurting, stressed out mom-of-an-addict either way - so do what's REALLY best for both of you and let him take responsibility for his actions this time. then pray and (try to) trust.