my son is in rehab and I still can't get any peace
His flight arrives at 8:45 this evening. He called me from the airport and said Mom I don't have anywhere to go. I told him that he made a huge mistake today and that I cannot walk up and down the hallway wondering if he is dead behind that door. It was tormenting me and becoming an obsession. His dad is picking him up from the airport and will bring him to my house to get his car. I'll be home about 10:30 from my second job and I know he will still be there pretending to get his stuff together. That is when I will have a hard time seeing him and making him leave. My extra added layer of guilt lies in the fact that we have made so many idle threats and I know he didn't believe that he would have nowhere to go when he arrived home. I also fear that he has so many problems, legal and otherwise, that if he thinks I am abandoning him, it will push him over the edge. I know have to start somewhere but this is so hard.