Barb, you & I are both heading towards our 6th month. In the end of my drinking career, when holidays or special occasions came up I'd almost dread them, worrying about "how bad will I blow it this time?" & ridiculous thoughts like that. Not drinking never crossed my mind, of course. As these days come and go, they feel less strange each time - in the beginning, I confess it seemed like something was missing. Now I tell myself if something is missing, I need to change my life & find out what it is. I'm so happy for you, my friend. Enjoy your new freedom.