Its a bit like snakes and ladders-long!!
Thank you all for your support. My partner is a very loving father, a very hard worker and had a very troubled upbringing. All of this cannot overcome his drinking and associated behaviour.I was told today that in our home has always been cold and full of tension- its like a kick in the teeth! However the problems have been there from the very beginning- all the nights i held a tiny newborn waiting for him to fall home-i suppose i have been on edge all this time i just thought it didnt effect the environment all the time and it breaks my heart to think that there is/has been a constant bad environment for my kids.
Its really hard giving up on the dream i had for myself and my children.
I realise i need to move forward and its scary not knowing whats ahead but there is great comfort to be had here- thank you.