I'm sorry this is happening in your life. It is very hard to grasp that you really have no control over this disease. It sounds like your AH has some soul searching to do. I would find an alanon meeting or a therapist that you can discuss this with. My STBXAH has been moved out for about two months now, so I understand pretty well the emotions you are experiencing. I know where he is staying now but since he's not around, I have no idea what he's doing. It is scary, but worrying about him will do nothing to change the situation. (Sad but true.) Continue to come here and read the sticky posts at the top. This board has helped me so much. (((HUGS)))