Bonbon
Don't beat yourself up. Many times over the years I have told my A that I want to be the irresponsible one, the always drunk one. I think it is a self defense mechanism. Then again I don't fight the feeling of always craving the alcohol and drugs. He wants to be the responsible one and just can't seem to do it. What a mixed up world. Sure wish we all had the answers, but then we wouldn't have so many interesting topics to discuss.