i've made it through the night alone. just me and the dogs and cats and fish.
i felt a little lonely but just sat and sitting with it now. observing it. in quite solitude. Even in a relationship i'll be alone in this body for the rest of my life so I'm ready to get used to it. I'm finding this aloneness is a very big thing.
beautiful night to be alone.
to be clean
to look at the ups and down over the course of this day
to be thankful for the good decisions i made
and of course especially not using
and continuing to practice being with my uncomfortableness
and knowing that i'm not alone in my exprience of this aloneness
and to be feeling better after the oreo explosion that took a toll on me
and to be in heeaven listening to the soft music my computer is playing
and to be comfortable with falling into sleep pretty soon
clean sober and living in the now doing the best i can