Thanks for letting me realize I'm not the only one with a bad picker. I need to get my ass to some meetings. I did make a pack with my self on June 17 that I will work on myself for a year before trying any relationships. I will find my inner peace by learning to be my own person, and to love and respect myself first before I can have a "normal" relationship. So I am going camping with my two boys on the ocean this week, looking forward to some good bodysurfing, reading, and fishing with the two best little men I have in this world.