I've made it home sucessfully.
I did call the therapist, and went to a meeting.
I'm feeling almost no uncomfortableness. definitely no urges or thoughts now. and I'm safe and home and settled in 20 miles away from any trouble.
thanks for the responses. I'm eating now and going to cook some rice. I'm enjoying my solitude, living in the world that is in front of me, instead of wishing for what I don't have, and instead of running. I'm settled in right now.
I'm grateful for your responses and support.