To all,
I am sorry for the above rant-
Embarrassed. Just about died when I saw it had posted.
Sometimes I start to reply and it's 30 minutes later and way off topic, goes on and on, in all different directions. I delete! Today I thought I had done the same. I'm obviously not in a "good place," not embarrassed about that, but after being in the program as long as I have, I do USUALLY try to take that deep breath and at least, communicate my feelings with less anger and judgement, more kindness. I know EVERYONE, from myself to any professional, addict, recovering one, etc., wishes and wants the best for everyone.