Welcome to SR Buttercup, what you say makes perfect sense.
I found in my case that my drinking had to be only at certain times of the day as the kids started to get a bit older. With work, school, homework, dinner etc instead of boozing whenever I wanted I couldn't really start until early evening. Problem was it would go on most of the night, I would fall asleep on the sofa getting only two or three hours sleep and then have to get up for work. The vicious circle would then start all over again.
I also ditched most spirits in favour of beer, a few scary out of control incidents made me at least take some form of action( even though I was still kidding myself).
As you know there is great support and advice here for you, heres to day 1.