glad to see you here johnny.... that in itself is a awesome step as well as a conscience awareness that yes... alcohol is a problem
as a functional alcoholic myself... i understand the justifications that perpetuate the problem... i guess from what i've learned: you'll be amazed when you lift that cloak of "mildly buzzed" for an extended period... there is a lot out there and right around you that will take on new perspectives through sober lenses
good luck and again... glad to see you here