Originally Posted by
hbb 
(((Lex))) it is a grieving process, it takes time. Take a minute to imagine if you had your exabf to deal with in the mix of everything as well. I often think like that, when i'm having a tough time how nice it would be for J to have been there for me. But you know what, if J was there it would have made life hell because of all the drama he brings to a relationship that it would make things a billion times worse.
Keep the focus on you and your son
you will get through it, just takes time.
Thanks Heather!
Thats exactly what I've been thinking about the last few days. How hard it would be if xabf was still around through all this with my son. I don't even want to imagine as he'd just want to get away from me and go and drink. So yes I'm thankful he isn't around during these tough times.
Right now I am trying very hard to take care of myself. The issues with my son is taking a huge toll on me and I am just so exhausted.But I will get through it.