Originally Posted by
lexusgirl 
I guess what bothers me most, is that I'm struggling, really struggling, financially, emotionally, and mentally with the thing with my son, as well as grieiving the break up.
(((Lex))) it is a grieving process, it takes time. Take a minute to imagine if you had your exabf to deal with in the mix of everything as well. I often think like that, when i'm having a tough time how nice it would be for J to have been there for me. But you know what, if J was there it would have made life hell because of all the drama he brings to a relationship that it would make things a billion times worse.
Keep the focus on you and your son
you will get through it, just takes time.